we were driving around town looking for shops to spend what little money we had
we wound up at the mall in ripped jeans wearing peaceful hearts on our sleeves
it was just us two guys and our inspiration for life

it was cool out, the streets lit by the moon and a few lights
semi fog creeping its filthy hands into our small town.
i was sitting on the curb smoking the second to my last cigarette
you were sitting and contemplating the ideals of life
finishing up a black and mild we had shared, we talked about theology, past loves, and drugs.

deep into an illusion we created out of conversation, we built our dreams and goals
good karma must have met us like a fist
even if nothing had distinguished a conclusion
everything made sense, everything was settle



under the right conditions we could see farther than what we normally could
intertwining realistic emotions and hope made peace set in my mind
I had to hit rock bottom emotionally for me to develop faith in life
to realize that most walls are transparent and burdens are disposable.
still dwelling in the hole, yet now having the ability to look up for a better view of heaven

on and on we sank deep into the ideas of making a realistic utopia
trying to find out what this world is here for
gaining understand and attributes needed to live

It came smothering me like a cocoon representing the past in our conversations
she was far gone, even in my imagination, so...
when there's nothing left to live for I tend to put more effort into living
yet that was just a glitch that accrued in my series of questions
filling in only a portion of the gap.
i know ill always wonder, why.
but now there's an eager sensation to live and love even if it isn't for you,or at least i like to think.

we were just trying to find answers
searching for ability's in arms reach.
confusion is just another transparent wall that i cant understand.


later we drove to the nearest gas station
bought ourselves a drink and some skoal than headed to someones house to watch a film and prepare for the weekend.

~nate~